Shock

Had a whole list of things to blog about..been trying to pay close attention....and then today a bombshell dropped....I got to school today only to find out that one of our dear teacher's had a heart attack just this morning and didn't make it....we had all of a 20 min heads up before informing the students.  Held it together till about 5th period and now am falling apart at the seams it feels....I think more than anything what is messing with me the most is the fact that it was so unexpected....in reality it could have been any of us...it is hard when death strikes unexpectedly so close to home....I don't know how to begin processing....it just adds one more thing to everything I'm fighting at the moment....I miss my bunny...I didn't bring her in this morning and I should have...then she would have been here...for the kids...but more importantly, for me....asked the Redneck Knight if he would bring her to me and his response was, "You're kidding, right?"  No I wasn't kidding thank you very much but nevermind!  Thankful for small blessings...being as how I'm not allowed to bottle things up anymore, glad that I can access my blog from work..at least now I can get some of this junk out before it eats me alive...heartbroken....helpless...completely overwhelmed...